Is suicide really painless?

[Silver Knight]

This is a serious discussion of said subject matter and I am not for or against any opinion, just asking for some help


Ive been battling depression for years. Goes back to maybe my junior year of high school. Since that time everytime I screw somethig up My mind goes into overload and thinks the worst is going to happen and that the only way out is suicide.

Fortunitly for me Im too scared to end my life, and the thought of horrible pain backs me out of it. However recently those fears are starting to go by the wayside and I know that I can do it without pain. My mind is shortly loosing the fear to end my life so its starting to worry me

I just have questions. Like if I have a soul, would I go to hell automaticlly even if I've lead a good life? What exactly is in the afterlife? Would "god" accept my decision? And where could I seek help secretly for this aliment?

[Gilda Dent]

This is a serious discussion of said subject matter and I am not for or against any opinion, just asking for some help


Ive been battling depression for years. Goes back to maybe my junior year of high school. Since that time everytime I screw somethig up My mind goes into overload and thinks the worst is going to happen and that the only way out is suicide.

Fortunitly for me Im too scared to end my life, and the thought of horrible pain backs me out of it. However recently those fears are starting to go by the wayside and I know that I can do it without pain. My mind is shortly loosing the fear to end my life so its starting to worry me

I just have questions. Like if I have a soul, would I go to hell automaticlly even if I've lead a good life? What exactly is in the afterlife? Would "god" accept my decision? And where could I seek help secretly for this aliment?

For help with the spiritual issues, you need to talk to a clergyman, your priest or minister or rabbi or whatever applies to you.

You also need to get professional help. Find yourself a therapist or counselor. See a doctor about possible physiological reasons for your depression and treatments.

Call someone here:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

A comic book message board is the wrong place to be looking for help with this.

[Jeff Brady]

Go to a hospital's emergency room RIGHT NOW, and try to get a friend to come with you. Tell the doctor(s) exactly what you are going through, exactly what you posted here. They are obligated to help you, no matter what your financial/insurance situation is. Get into a therapy program, and stick with it. Hospitals have free and sliding scale mental health clinics. I'm in one, too. Feel free to clog up my inbox if you need to talk.

Call a suicide hotline. I don't know where you are, so find one on this list:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

Regarding the soul stuff, no one knows for sure because no one has come back from the dead to tell about it.

[cap5]

This is a serious discussion of said subject matter and I am not for or against any opinion, just asking for some help


Ive been battling depression for years. Goes back to maybe my junior year of high school. Since that time everytime I screw somethig up My mind goes into overload and thinks the worst is going to happen and that the only way out is suicide.

Fortunitly for me Im too scared to end my life, and the thought of horrible pain backs me out of it. However recently those fears are starting to go by the wayside and I know that I can do it without pain. My mind is shortly loosing the fear to end my life so its starting to worry me

I just have questions. Like if I have a soul, would I go to hell automaticlly even if I've lead a good life? What exactly is in the afterlife? Would "god" accept my decision? And where could I seek help secretly for this aliment?

I sometimes ask the very same Question -the later questions like if i have a soul and after that

[Silver Knight]

For help with the spiritual issues, you need to talk to a clergyman, your priest or minister or rabbi or whatever applies to you.

You also need to get professional help. Find yourself a therapist or counselor. See a doctor about possible physiological reasons for your depression and treatments.

Call someone here:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

A comic book message board is the wrong place to be looking for help with this.

Well I dont really have any fiath in religion anymore. For some reason My faith in Christianity has really dimished over the years and really to tell the truth Im actually starting to like Buddhism and it's teachings. But I really dont belive in the whole Omnipotent being just really diferent teachings.

That stuff costs. Besides it must be private because I dont want my family to know.

Also CBR is about the only place I feel comfortable talking about this, particularly because I dont have to give a face or name, but its also where im at most of my time.

Go to a hospital's emergency room RIGHT NOW, and try to get a friend to come with you. Tell the doctor(s) exactly what you are going through, exactly what you posted here. They are obligated to help you, no matter what your financial/insurance situation is. Get into a therapy program, and stick with it. Hospitals have free and sliding scale mental health clinics. I'm in one, too. Feel free to clog up my inbox if you need to talk.

Call a suicide hotline. I don't know where you are, so find one on this list:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

Regarding the soul stuff, no one knows for sure because no one has come back from the dead to tell about it.

Well im relaxing on CBR right now (bout the only thing that keeps me sane) so Hospital is out:p

Im not sure. I barly have enough money to cover my gas and food bills cant afford anything. Must be totally free.

As for calling a hotline im nervous about talking to a stranger about my mental stuff, seems so weird. even over the phone. Also I live in Texas if that helps.

And according to Christian stuff Jesus did. but im sure he wouldnt like what im thinking about if he even did such a thing;)

[Lord of Denial]

Silver Knight.

I have battled depression for almost my entire adult life and the first step in recovering is seeing depression as an genuine illness and not something you should be ashamed of.

If you feel weird about talking to a perfect stranger just know that they are there to listen and hear you out without judgement. Sometime it is far easier to talk to a stranger about your problems then someone you know.

It seem like you are bearing this alone and one important thing is have a support structure. Someone you can unload on and will be there for you and just listen to your worries and frustrations. Even if it just a single person, be it a friend a family member or a mental heath professional. It is just to much to handle alone.

Lastly there are plenty of mental health centers that bill on a basis on the patients ability to pay. If you make little or no money you can get help free of charge for as long as you need it. Just call around and ask about there billing procedures.

I wish you luck and if you want PM me whenever you want.

[Jeff Brady]

Well im relaxing on CBR right now (bout the only thing that keeps me sane) so Hospital is out:p

Well, CBR isn't going to be you psychiatrist; we can't prescribe medication to balance out your moods, we can't help you find the root of your problems and help you deal with them. We are not trained for that.


Besides it must be private because I dont want my family to know.

There's this thing called Patient/Doctor Confidentiality. They can't tell anyone. My family has no idea that I'm depressed or in therapy.


Im not sure. I barly have enough money to cover my gas and food bills cant afford anything. Must be totally free.

They will set you up with a financial counselor when determining your fees. If you don't make that much, it will be free.

There is no harm in trying.


As for calling a hotline im nervous about talking to a stranger about my mental stuff, seems so weird. even over the phone. Also I live in Texas if that helps.

How is that different from what you're doing here?

http://suicidehotlines.com/texas.html

http://www.dshs.state.tx.us/mhservices/default.shtm

www.texassuicideprevention.org

http://www.addictionsearch.com/treatment_facilities/TX/cat_mental-health-clinics_1.html

[Silver Knight]

Silver Knight.

I have battled depression for almost my entire adult life and the first step in recovering is seeing depression as an genuine illness and not something you should be ashamed of.

If you feel weird about talking to a perfect stranger just know that they are there to listen and hear you out without judgement. Sometime it is far easier to talk to a stranger about your problems then someone you know.

It seem like you are bearing this alone and one important thing is have a support structure. Someone you can unload on and will be there for you and just listen to your worries and frustrations. Even if it just a single person, be it a friend a family member or a mental heath professional. It is just to much to handle alone.

Lastly there are plenty of mental health centers that bill on a basis on the patients ability to pay. If you make little or no money you can get help free of charge for as long as you need it. Just call around and ask about there billing procedures.

I wish you luck and if you want PM me whenever you want.
Illness? well I suppose but I dont know im not knowledgeable in that sort of thing.

That may be true. Maybe I'll do some calling.

Well I dont have good relations with my family. I really dont have someone I can talk to that'll understand. I told my roomate I attempted about 6 months back and he laughed about it.

Thanks LOD it means alot


Well, CBR isn't going to be you psychiatrist; we can't prescribe medication to balance out your moods, we can't help you find the root of your problems and help you deal with them. We are not trained for that.



There's this thing called Patient/Doctor Confidentiality. They can't tell anyone. My family has no idea that I'm depressed or in therapy.



They will set you up with a financial counselor when determining your fees. If you don't make that much, it will be free.

There is no harm in trying.



How is that different from what you're doing here?

http://suicidehotlines.com/texas.html

http://www.dshs.state.tx.us/mhservices/default.shtm

www.texassuicideprevention.org

http://www.addictionsearch.com/treatment_facilities/TX/cat_mental-health-clinics_1.html

Well I dont like meds because im not normal when im on such things (Was on like ridalin in elementary and juinor high. I stopped at High school) And well CBR is full of great people and Ideas so I thought it could help

Ok Doctor /paitent priviallage is one thing, but some still do tell family about such matters.

Ok will check it out, thanks Jeff.

P.S. I know certain posters persona's in CBR land so their not total strangers;)

Ok will be back in a few. going to watch National Treasure 2, hope it cheers me up:D See ya.

[Nik Hasta]

Suicide is never the answer in my opinion, there is no problem or situation that can be resolved with you killing yourself.

I second what everyone else has said here; get professional help, stay positive and get people you can talk to; family, friends, whatever.

Killing yourself is not a good idea.

[Jeff Brady]

Well I dont like meds because im not normal when im on such things (Was on like ridalin in elementary and juinor high. I stopped at High school) And well CBR is full of great people and Ideas so I thought it could help

Different drugs do different things. It sounds like you'd need an anti-depressant like Wellbutrin, and maybe an anti-anxiety drug along with it.


Ok Doctor /paitent priviallage is one thing, but some still do tell family about such matters.

If you're over 18 (or 21, I forget which), they can't legally tell. If they do, you can report them.

[Tom]

This forum is not equipped to help you with such a serious problem. I'm closing the thread and I urge you to check the links in Jeff's post or get yourself to an emergency room as soon as possible. Good luck.